Week 12

1) Gasp! I would never have a bad dream again! 

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2) Rewatching fantastic movies with fantastic soundtracks. 

3) weheartit wars with the hippie

4) the excitement of taking Children's Literature next semester (just for fun!) 

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5) Cigars and books on a front porch

Pro-cras-ti-na-tion! *sung to the toon of Operation*

Yes indeed. Procrastination. So much to do today...and yet I just want to take a moment and reflect for a little bit.

Jesus got me through this crazy week. I'm not really sure how but he did it. How thankful I am to have such a great guy in my life. I think all the mass amount of test I had actually went ok. We'll see on Monday and Tuesday *crosses fingers*.

Palm Sunday today. I don't have any special thoughts about it. Just an observation of the day. And thankfulness. I feel silly, cause I never have great revelations around this time of year. I just feel thankful. I guess that's enough huh? But still, don't you ever feel silly when people are having these great revelations of Jesus and his love and you're just like...yup! He's pretty great.

Whatever! I'm happy. It's sunny. Spring is here. I'll officially say it. I get to see my family tomorrow. I have a short week this week. I get to go home for Easter. Let me say it again. Life is good.

A song that fits, despite my good mood. Reminds me of "500 Day of Summer". It's the link to her website, but you can find the song there.

It Won't be You - Tara Leigh Cobble

Photo: Summer♥

You can't deny you want a happy ending

It's hard to bring myself to post again after my Christmas post as it's been getting a lot of traffic, so if you're looking for that one you'll find it below, but I just watched an amazing movie and need to process a bit.

Spoiler Alert! Don't read if you don't want (500) Days of Summer spoiled somewhat.

I just finished watching (500) Days of Summer. I truly believe it's a must see for all girls...well really just all people in general, but especially females. And it's interesting that the "girl" is actually the boy in the story. The boy that falls in love with the wrong girl.

I think every girl has gone through what he's gone through. The feeling of knowing...knowing without a doubt that you are going to marry someone. Knowing that no matter how bad things get that they are completely and totally the one for you...

And then having to watch yourself be wrong.

I have. I have, without a doubt, known I was going to marry someone.

And then watched myself be wrong.

It was such a heart awakening for me, watching him go through the same doubts I did. Watching him rejecting love of all kind. Watching him doubt that love even exists and become bitter. Watching him watch her. My heart seems to keep coming out of a deep sleep. I'm not the only one who has done this. Cause let me tell you, you feel pretty stupid when you finally realize after a year or so that it's just not going to happen...that it's not what is meant to be. It sucks to feel so wrong about something...but I think it's part of our nature as humans.

I was talking to Aunt M yesterday. I seem to be talking to a lot of people lately. But we were talking about how we as humans want to figure everything out and make everything make sense right now and how that's really just cutting ourselves off from our heart. When we try to figure things out in our head before God's timing it cuts of off from enjoying what's right before us.

I wrote a song about loving someone I shouldn't. And in the song, I end up with that person. That's not how that story really ends. It's been a long time coming, and I've known for awhile that it's not how the story ends. But the prideful part of me didn't want to admit it.

I think sometimes when a story ends we're scared there's no sequel. But Jesus is a pretty amazing author. And he has so many more creative things for us. We just need to learn how to let go and embrace them. I need to learn to let go and embrace them.

I worry, like every other girl my age I think, that I won't find the boy that is meant for me...I tell people that I've had the worst year ever when it comes to boys. That they suck and I'm giving up on them for good. But that's not really right. They just weren't the right ones. Or as Summer put it when she does finally find the right one...

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.

Tom: Knew what?

Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

Tom was sure. Summer wasn't. Tom got hurt...but it's not the end of the story. You have to pick up the sequel. Or keep turning the pages. So I'm wrong. I'll admit it. I'm wrong. The story didn't happen in reality like the one in my head. But I'm gunna keep turning. I'm gunna pick up the sequel. And I'm gunna let Jesus be the author instead of me (even if I do like to write).

Musical Inspiration

She's Got You High: Mumm-Ra

Us: Regina Spektor